Be Careful Of The Knight In Shining Armor

That Knight in shining armor I met was not like all the other guys at all, so I thought he must be extra special going way out of his way for me hoping I would give him a chance. I was not interested in dating at all and a very busy single parent working full time and going to school, so it only made sense that I met him on the job picking up the BNSF crew. When he asked me for my number he had to ask me twice and finally handed me a paper and pen. While I was writing down my number I could feel his energy it was extreme and all the while he was gazing at me writing with an extreme intensity I had not felt before I think this is why I fucked up. I usually give out the wrong phone number I was even thinking I have to give the wrong number and I didn’t I told myself what the fuck did you just do.

I did not want to go on any date he kept calling me and asking if I got a babysitter I said I was working on it which was not true at all my plans was just to say I’m sorry but I couldn’t get a babysitter this is the card I always played just to make the guys go away. He showed up at my door and I told him this and his reply was it’s ok I will take all of you out as I never had a guy like this pursue me he was educated had a decent job at the time he was attractive and came from an upper-class family so I was curious I had never been around anyone like this and so I was persuaded by him and having mixed feelings about this. I know for a fact I wasn't thinking like I usually do I had just taken this job because I was down for a few months with a major head injury and still suffering from it, but I had to go back to work the bills couldn’t wait any longer. So my kids and I get in his car and he said I know where I want to take you how does that sound and I said great. As he was driving I heard him whisper under his breath “your lucky your kids are with you or you would have been killed already”. I’m thinking I must still have a pretty bad head injury so I looked at him and said what did you say he looked at me in a way I can’t explain and replied: “What do you think I said?” I had nothing to say and he asked me that again I just gave a small smile of disbelief thinking ok maybe you just is a jokester but that’s strange and I remember feeling awkward. He was able to make me feel more comfortable and soon with his high energy personality he made everything feel so surreal. Know that I look back on this it was the very beginning of brainwashing and power and control.

I remember during our drive to the restaurant asking him who was babysitting for him and he said my parents and I asked do they watch them while you are at work and he said yes. I automatically assumed they must be nice people because I would never let my parents watch my kids.

While we were at the restaurant he was extremely extravagant and grandiose insisting we get all of this food that was very expensive he said it’s ok you will have lots of leftovers and I am thinking this is insane this food would literally last us a week. The bill came to over 300.00 for the four of us and this was 1988 I didn't even spend that in two months on groceries.

Once he takes us back home the kids and I go in and a bit later I hear a knock on my door he is asking me if I want to see some of his writing so I said ok and then he read me a poem that he wrote about a situation about a female he saw and it was very obsessive and sexual in nature and I found myself asking him questions.

Anyway’s a few days later he shows up at my door with a box and I said what is that and it has been so long ago that I do not remember his reply. He left right away I thought it was odd but being the snoop I am I went through all of the papers it was his divorce file. While snooping I came across something very disturbing in the court records was his ex-wife sister wrote a statement about an incident that happened while he was in the Air Force stationed in Berlin, Germany. The statement from his ex wife's sister stated that while she was gone he was babysitting her then five year old daughter and she came back early found her daughter in the bathroom tied up naked with bruises all over her. He also told me he was a spy in the air-force which I think the second part was a lie. The next time I saw him he showed up unexpectedly asking me for help that his parents said now that he is dating me they won’t babysit anymore and he had to go to work I said I have to go to work also and he asked me if I could just this one time so he doesn’t lose his good job, so I told him you are going to have to get daycare I work full-time and go to school also. His daughters were about 2,71/2 and 9 at the time and adorable his 2-year-old started eating cat food off the floor which I thought was weird I ended up having to stay home the next day because his job with the railroad would take him away from home often between 24–48 hours. When he came back he immediately started asking me to move in with him I was like no way that’s crazy I just met you maybe in 6 months and he seemed hurt by this. During the course of this 6 months, he convinced me that his ex-wife was an awful parent is why he has custody and that everything including his sister's statement is a lie in an attempt to get custody hmm that's kind of funny because he told me she didn't want anything to do with her kids and all kinds of horrible stuff about her which was later repeated from his parents that are very financially comfortable. While his ex wifes sister was able to write a statement and mail it from Germany it is clear to me know that she was isolated and alone in a country with no family and no finances.

I was extremely busy as a single working parent going to school with no family or other parent I also never was receiving child support so most of my money went to daycare and rent but I always paid my bills on time and had a nice home for us to rent. We liked the place we where living and with dread he was pestering me into moving in with him I remember I didn't have a lot to pack I am not into stuff so when he pulled up with a small haul I couldn't believe I was doing this I think I am a sucker for kids because now that I look back on all this I think he brainwashed his kids into charming me so I would move in with him and so I did I went against who I am and fell for the bait.

I remember once we got over to his house the next day I told him you know this doesn't feel right to me I am not unpacking I am just going to go back to the house before my landlord rents it out he will be ok with that my landlord and I are on good terms. That is when his daughter ran in pleading you cant go our dad, is a psycho and I said what does he do to you? She started saying something about a hanger and yelled at her to go to her room. This is when he started saying it's not true shes just upset her mom abandoned her. I felt bad for her and wanted to take care of them but this should have been my sign to run back with my kids to my house as fast as I can and never talk to him again.

The date I moved in with him was June 27th, 1999 during the short time I lived with him I made numerous observations and mental record of those events. Just like he was grooming me taking in every detail about me for his bad intentions. He knew a lot about my adult life but not my childhood what he did know about me is this that I am in the Law Enforcement database as an officer because I was supposed to be hired on full-time when the car accident happened and change my course of life events he knew that I was in the criminal justice database for firearms training and for working in the JuveniletsJustice System as an intern. I am glad he knew all this because a few times he told me I would not be a good person to kill and I asked why? He told me my information would easily be found and this is because of what he knew about me and this is good but it still did not stop him from doing some of the things I am going to write about.

He often made comments about my daughter who was at the time 8 years old he would say she just needs to be tied up until she can behave. He started making these comment’s so often I started asking him well have you ever tied someone up before he said no but I could tell that he was lying and he finally admitted that when he lived with a girlfriend in Texas he tied up her sons because they were not behaving. I told him I thought so by the way you are always talking about that and so it must be true in your court records the statement made by your ex-wife's sister regarding her 5-year-old daughter and he quickly denied that saying that was all false allegations.

On Mother’s Day 1999 approximately he was still at work and I never knew what time he would come in all of the kids where asleep at the other end of the house I had made the dining room into our room where my 4-month-old baby slept next to me at approximately 1145pm I woke up because he had silently come in and wrapped a bag around my head and tied a rope around my neck then slamming my head violently into the headboard repeatedly.

A lot of stuff happened I am not going to write about all of it but I am going to write about a few things that I won't forget and need to be told. One night he came home while the kids where all asleep and he had fresh scratches on his eyelids with fresh blood and on his arms as well I asked what happened and he said his daughter did it I said no way she did that she wouldn't and she is sleeping and you have not even seen her in over a day you are a liar. He went on doing that talky thing that sometimes liars do in an attempt to convince me that he was telling the truth. One of the other things he said a lot is I am very lucky and I am like yeah how? He told me any other female that talks to him ends up missing. The reason he did not know about my childhood is that it was so traumatic that I got amnesia and had no memory of it but after I met him after living with him it’s all starting to come back now.

I was a 4.0 criminal justice graduate and I wanted to save all of my work and I noticed he only stole my profile on serial killer’s essay and left everything else I have always wondered why he took that.